Friday, 8 August 2014

"I dislike commitments."

But I'm trying.

How do people even stay committed to write and post on their respective blogs daily or weekly or at least, monthly? For God's sakes, my last post was in May. And that's like months ago. If you (had ever) asked, I do write, almost every single day in my personal journal or I'll just jot down on any paper I could find around me. It's good to write, and it feels good! I just- could not just write that freely, here. I'm afraid it's going to be too bizarre or someone's going to get hurt, you know. I'm indecisive, remember? And also quite (very) pessimistic.

Well, since we're on the topic, I'm just going to rant. I started to have a diary back in 2005 when my family moved to Subang Jaya and I had to leave my friends back in Bangi. I was probably quite upset so I started to write. My school in Shah Alam had nice people but I was a kid who took quite a while to adapt to any surrounding. Even until now. Writing helped, it basically saved me. Here's an important advice: Do not ever steal/ read anyone's diary, ever. You see, my diary went missing, and it came back to me (specifically, under my desk) days later. Bits of drama happened here and there, came to find out a close friend was the one who did it. I forgave her though and we're still friends. But anyway, that's not the point. That incident hurt me so much that I stopped having any sort of diary. But I still write, sometimes. I just didn't keep them back then.

I moved back to Kajang after primary school ended and went to SMK Convent Kajang. A friend introduced me to Blogger and that's how I started blogging. 2010 was the year I met Puan N who was an amazing teacher and she was (probably) the main reason that I started to really write again. I've been keeping journals since.

To those who wants to write but does not know how? Just do it. Do it, at your own pace. Write a story. Write poems. Write things that hurt. Whatever. Do it for you. I support you. It's worth the try, I promise. Have a good day.